clinging on to dear hope!

over the last few days, rather months!, i have been hoping for so many things to happen. so many things, professional/personal. there are times i wonder, how the mind tends to cling on to things that move in the direction you want it to. when some things happen, you believe its because something else you are hoping to happen is on its way. how strange! there are times i think, wish i could see the future. wish i could see what would happen. how life would turn out to be. what would be the result of so many things. things like astrology or some predictions which you don't really believe in tend to make so much difference then. they tend to matter. i hope to get over this feeling of anxiety. how i wish i learn to "not care" about what happens and just live life my way and enjoy! may be that would help because, then, there would not be that "one" thing which can sway my emotions other way round and i would learn to be happy "no matter what!".

at the end of the day, i just realize, "there is nothing as sweet as hope" and it always helps to learn to live life "right now!" and have fun!

a beautiful afternoon.

its spring time! bright and warm sunshine all around. calmness in my surroundings. birds constantly chirping away in the background. vast expanses of green environs for as far as i can see. not too many people around. some cars whizzing past. a group of cyclists enjoying their day. a nice simple meal. standing in my patio, enjoying the gentle breeze. some time to be engrossed in my thoughts, to wander away as far as i want into the past or future. love the feeling of nobody demanding my time. enjoying every moment of this!

A Comeback Post ...

Its been a long time since I wrote. A million times I have wanted to come back and start writing more regularly. About a million things around, a million people, a few thoughts, some new experiences. Things have changed a lot since I last wrote.  Back to being a student in a distant land, away from home, exploring for myself an altogether different world, a new set of friends and a new world around me. So many things to write about. Hopefully this time around I'm a lot more regular at writing. I hope the enthusiasm remains and this blog will get to see my new world too! Happy Blogging to me! :)